Okay, I'm having a hard time trying to decide what to do! I have been asked to choreograph a musical! It would be my first one with adults! Ahhh!!! I am not in love with the show, but I have done the Jr. version, so I at least know a little bit about it.
So, now I have to try and figure out what my schedule would be, if I were to do it! I'm not sure why I'm having such a hard time. Curt said, it's because I want to do it. Ha ha ha, but I can't tell.
I want to do it, but I'm so nervous that my summer is going to be like my fall! And I don't want that! 4 shows was too much! 14 weeks of rehearsals was too much!
Right now on my summer schedule is:
StageWorx- June-July- 28 hours a week
Ford- working 20-30 hours a week (I'm not sure about this one- it probably depends how much money I need for my future wedding).
So to add another show- for the month of June- I can't tell if that is too much! What I need to do is go home and pray over it and see what comes to me!
I don't want to be motivated by money! That is what I always feel like I am! I have to pay off my bills! I want to have the wedding (still not engaged- wah wah) that I want! Not saying that I need to have a $50,000 wedding, but I want to do everything that I want! And to be honest, I don't even know what that is as of yet! After the wedding, it will be money for a down payment then maybe money for kids!
My friend once said, you are never going to have money! You will always think, if I could just make blank amount more! She said this as I was talking about one of my many part time jobs. I said that is true! She said, I need to listen to what I WANT to do and not the money that is behind it. I know that if I didn't spend as much I wouldn't need as much! Ha ha ha!
I don't want to think any more today! I just need to make a decision and go! I will feel better once it's made...whether or not it's taking the job or not taking the job. I just want the decision to be made. I'm out!
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