Alright, so I went to the audition clinic for the Chiefs!!! I had a total blast and feel pretty good about the dances. Here are the issues that I have...
1. I'm nervous that I will forget dance when it really counts.
2. I'm afraid that I will make it to the next round and mess up on the interview.
3. I'm nervous that I will make it all the way through only to not make it in the end.
I have this feeling that I can make it and that I would be a great addition to the team. But that feeling in my opinion is not a good one to have. Here are the facts, there are 33 open spots...and probably about 200 girls auditioning. I just can't be sure that I'm in the top 33 dancers/performers. That doesn't mean that I'm not good...or that I wouldn't be a great addition to the team. But it does mean that my chances are not as high as I would like. Say for example, if there were only 33 girls auditioning...then I could make it for sure. Ha ha ha...
But I am determined to give it my all. I have run the dances a billion times! I have worked on my facials and am going over things that I would need should I make it past the first cuts. Darn it...I really want to make it! <sigh> oh well, I'm going to go on and do my best! That is all I can do and all I can give! Like the Cheerleaders said...and as my family always said...if it's meant to be...it will be! So, I'm going to work hard and do my best...then leave it up to God!!!
In other news, it's CYT's tech week! So, the kids are doing a great job thus far (one rehearsal)...and hopefully they will keep up the awesome work and this week will run smoothly.
There is also a snow storm coming this way...that will hopefully hit on Thursday! With the luck that Kansas has...it might be cloudy. Ha ha ha!
Okay, that is all I have to write for the moment...have a great day folks!
Tuesday, February 19, 2013
Tuesday, February 12, 2013
So many thoughts...so hard to type them all out...
So, today is Tuesday. There are so many things that I want to say...but I can't seem to get everything or anything in any sort of order. So, I'm just going to type away and hope that it comes out somewhat coherent.
1. The Chiefs audition clinic is this weekend. To say that I'm nervous is a bit of an understatement. I know that it would be a blast to do something like this for a year! I know it would be even more fun if my friend and I both made it! I think we could get close again like we were a few years ago. I feel as if I have worked really hard to the best that I can. I wasn't able to take all of the dance classes that I wanted too with the shows that I'm choreographing. In fact I have not been able to really take any classes at all. On the days when I could have...I was so tired and just wanted to rest for a moment. Audition clinic this weekend and the auditions next weekend. I just hope that I can show them the best that I can do. I guess my other prayer would be that I can accept not making the team with grace and class. That God can fill me with a peace that says "I have something else in mind for you" or something like that. So, I guess that is all I have to say about that.
2. Beauty and the Beast opens next week. Yes, the same week as auditions. So, instead of getting to practice all night for auditions, I will be watching a show and taking notes. Arg...a little frustrating. But that is okay! The show is either going to soar in this next week or flop! If the kids would get their head in the game...it would be a lot better for my nerves...but that is all good! If everything works out in my favor...I will be at the auditions all weekend long...that would be such a dream! I guess worse case...I get to go watch the beauty and the beast show and see all of the hard work these kids put in...Darn auditions that are freaking me out!
3. I have been doing the 3 day military diet the past 2 weeks. I have lost a total of 4lbs. However I feel as if this week I have gained it all back. Ha ha ha...But that is okay. I will do it for this week and possibly next week just to feel and look the best that I can for those darn auditions. Why does that topic keep popping up everywhere. However, I did substitute hot chocolate for tea last week and I don't think I will do that again. I didn't lose as much...but I also might be gaining muscle. Hmmm, something to think about! The best thing about the diet is the fact that they tell you what to eat. I don't have to think about it at all...ha ha ha. It also makes packing a lunch super easy!
4. Yesterday my mom went into the hospital for gallbladder surgery. It is a bit scary, but supposedly a routine procedure. There is of course that 1 in a million chance that something could go wrong. The thing that haunts me is when my Grandfather felt sick, my mom said...he is fine and he is not going to die. Then he wasn't fine and he did die. Not that I blame my mom or anything because that is what she and the family thought...but it still is scary. On top of that scare, my cousin went into the hospital with blood clots in his lungs. So, it was a bit of a rough day for the family. Everyone was a little scared for them, it shook the family a little bit. But our family is a get right back up if we get knocked down kind of family. So, spirits were high, jokes were flying, and everything is going to be fine! My mom is having her surgery today at 3:30. While I would like to be there...I'm not sure what good it would do...so I'm just going to be sitting by my phone waiting for word that she came out of it like a champ!!!
5. This week we have Parent Teacher Conferences! I'm at school until 8pm tonight and then until 6pm on Thursday. It's not a bad time, but with the medical stuff it's not exactly a convenient thing either. But I do get to have Friday off...ha ha ha. The only weird thing is that out PTO normally provides dinner and lunch for us during these long days. Well this week they are not really doing that. So, it's a little strange. However I feel a little greedy complaining about it...but it's okay! Tonight we are ordering in and then on Thursday I will be doing my diet thing anyway...so I don't really care!
6. One more thing! Curt got his PTO approved! So we are driving up to Colorado for Spring Break!!! I am so excited and scared at the same time. We have never been together by ourselves for so long...ha ha ha! I was looking stuff up online (where to stay, what to do...) and there are so many things to possibly do! I want to go skiing, horseback riding, sleigh ride would be romantic, swim in a hot spring, and relax in a cozy cabin! I don't think that is asking too much! Ha ha ha, this is all so exciting!!! In a little more than a month, I will be off with the love of my life on our first vacation!!!
Okay, I think that is everything that I wanted to say! I'm off to alphabetize and copy some stuff!!! Peace out folks!
1. The Chiefs audition clinic is this weekend. To say that I'm nervous is a bit of an understatement. I know that it would be a blast to do something like this for a year! I know it would be even more fun if my friend and I both made it! I think we could get close again like we were a few years ago. I feel as if I have worked really hard to the best that I can. I wasn't able to take all of the dance classes that I wanted too with the shows that I'm choreographing. In fact I have not been able to really take any classes at all. On the days when I could have...I was so tired and just wanted to rest for a moment. Audition clinic this weekend and the auditions next weekend. I just hope that I can show them the best that I can do. I guess my other prayer would be that I can accept not making the team with grace and class. That God can fill me with a peace that says "I have something else in mind for you" or something like that. So, I guess that is all I have to say about that.
2. Beauty and the Beast opens next week. Yes, the same week as auditions. So, instead of getting to practice all night for auditions, I will be watching a show and taking notes. Arg...a little frustrating. But that is okay! The show is either going to soar in this next week or flop! If the kids would get their head in the game...it would be a lot better for my nerves...but that is all good! If everything works out in my favor...I will be at the auditions all weekend long...that would be such a dream! I guess worse case...I get to go watch the beauty and the beast show and see all of the hard work these kids put in...Darn auditions that are freaking me out!
3. I have been doing the 3 day military diet the past 2 weeks. I have lost a total of 4lbs. However I feel as if this week I have gained it all back. Ha ha ha...But that is okay. I will do it for this week and possibly next week just to feel and look the best that I can for those darn auditions. Why does that topic keep popping up everywhere. However, I did substitute hot chocolate for tea last week and I don't think I will do that again. I didn't lose as much...but I also might be gaining muscle. Hmmm, something to think about! The best thing about the diet is the fact that they tell you what to eat. I don't have to think about it at all...ha ha ha. It also makes packing a lunch super easy!
4. Yesterday my mom went into the hospital for gallbladder surgery. It is a bit scary, but supposedly a routine procedure. There is of course that 1 in a million chance that something could go wrong. The thing that haunts me is when my Grandfather felt sick, my mom said...he is fine and he is not going to die. Then he wasn't fine and he did die. Not that I blame my mom or anything because that is what she and the family thought...but it still is scary. On top of that scare, my cousin went into the hospital with blood clots in his lungs. So, it was a bit of a rough day for the family. Everyone was a little scared for them, it shook the family a little bit. But our family is a get right back up if we get knocked down kind of family. So, spirits were high, jokes were flying, and everything is going to be fine! My mom is having her surgery today at 3:30. While I would like to be there...I'm not sure what good it would do...so I'm just going to be sitting by my phone waiting for word that she came out of it like a champ!!!
5. This week we have Parent Teacher Conferences! I'm at school until 8pm tonight and then until 6pm on Thursday. It's not a bad time, but with the medical stuff it's not exactly a convenient thing either. But I do get to have Friday off...ha ha ha. The only weird thing is that out PTO normally provides dinner and lunch for us during these long days. Well this week they are not really doing that. So, it's a little strange. However I feel a little greedy complaining about it...but it's okay! Tonight we are ordering in and then on Thursday I will be doing my diet thing anyway...so I don't really care!
6. One more thing! Curt got his PTO approved! So we are driving up to Colorado for Spring Break!!! I am so excited and scared at the same time. We have never been together by ourselves for so long...ha ha ha! I was looking stuff up online (where to stay, what to do...) and there are so many things to possibly do! I want to go skiing, horseback riding, sleigh ride would be romantic, swim in a hot spring, and relax in a cozy cabin! I don't think that is asking too much! Ha ha ha, this is all so exciting!!! In a little more than a month, I will be off with the love of my life on our first vacation!!!
Okay, I think that is everything that I wanted to say! I'm off to alphabetize and copy some stuff!!! Peace out folks!
Thursday, February 7, 2013
I've got some stress up in here...
Alright...I have been having this panic-y feeling again and it sucks. I had it back in November and it felt as if something was being pushed into my throat. It feels hard to breath...but not in a life threatening way...just in an annoying way. It lasted for about 2 weeks and it sucked. I was talking to my family about it at Thanksgiving and my Aunt said she used to have the same thing. It's caused from Anxiety! It eventually went away and I was so happy! Well, last week it started up again. So, I'm trying to do a breathing excercise I learned and figure out why I'm feeling this way. Here is my potential list:
1. Beauty and the Beast opens in 8 rehearsals.
2. Chiefs audition clinic is next Saturday
3. Chiefs auditions are in 3 weeks
4. Trying to workout and eat healthy for those auditions
5. Seussical opens in a month
6. Valentines day is next week- do I get Curt a gift or don't I
7. His birthday is next month and I want him to have an awesome birthday. What to get him...what to do for him...I am just at a complete loss
8. Theatre in the Park auditions are March 2 and I'm not prepared at all
9. I have something going on just about every single day for the next month
So, I guess I have a few reasons as too why I might be stressing. But it sucks anyway! Here is what you do if you are ever stressing like me and feel the way I do...
1. Inhale 5 times short breaths (do not let the air out)
2. On the 5 one, breath in as much air as you can
3. Let all the air out slowly
It works for me, I usually do it 2-3 times in a row and then I feel a little better...at least for a while.
Day 2 of the diet, I'm having a little more trouble, but nothing too crazy. The nurse asked me to get ice for her...which was terrible because today is snack day! There were donuts and cookies galore! I was sad! But I'm going to stay strong! I'm drinking my 4th glass of water and am looking forward to lunch! Curt's call should be coming in 15 min and I have a lot of stuff to do to keep me busy. Tonight I'm going to see Little Mermaid. We might be doing that at my school next year...so we are trying to scope it out! I'm not sure how I feel about it. Oh well...it should be a good time.
I think that is all that I have for today...I'm out to get my work done...
1. Beauty and the Beast opens in 8 rehearsals.
2. Chiefs audition clinic is next Saturday
3. Chiefs auditions are in 3 weeks
4. Trying to workout and eat healthy for those auditions
5. Seussical opens in a month
6. Valentines day is next week- do I get Curt a gift or don't I
7. His birthday is next month and I want him to have an awesome birthday. What to get him...what to do for him...I am just at a complete loss
8. Theatre in the Park auditions are March 2 and I'm not prepared at all
9. I have something going on just about every single day for the next month
So, I guess I have a few reasons as too why I might be stressing. But it sucks anyway! Here is what you do if you are ever stressing like me and feel the way I do...
1. Inhale 5 times short breaths (do not let the air out)
2. On the 5 one, breath in as much air as you can
3. Let all the air out slowly
It works for me, I usually do it 2-3 times in a row and then I feel a little better...at least for a while.
Day 2 of the diet, I'm having a little more trouble, but nothing too crazy. The nurse asked me to get ice for her...which was terrible because today is snack day! There were donuts and cookies galore! I was sad! But I'm going to stay strong! I'm drinking my 4th glass of water and am looking forward to lunch! Curt's call should be coming in 15 min and I have a lot of stuff to do to keep me busy. Tonight I'm going to see Little Mermaid. We might be doing that at my school next year...so we are trying to scope it out! I'm not sure how I feel about it. Oh well...it should be a good time.
I think that is all that I have for today...I'm out to get my work done...
Wednesday, February 6, 2013
Update on life type of post!
So, I haven't written in a few days! It's a little hard to write on the weekends...especially with how my weekends have been the past couple of days! As if that makes any sense...the past couple of weeks. I guess we can play a little catch up on my life...
Military Diet- I ended up losing 2.5LBS. I was a little sad at first, but then I remembered what they said...it's not always about the weight. It's also about inches and how you feel! So, I realized that I felt great and that a pair of pants that I wanted to wear the Monday before the diet...they fit after the diet!!! Yahoo!!! So, I wore the pants on Sunday to Church...and then again on Monday! Ha ha ha...
Beauty and the Beast- It's going great! The dances are coming along quite well...if only I could get the kids to take it seriously and practice on their own a little. <sigh> I guess they will work even harder the week of the show. Only 3 more rehearsals before tech week!!! That is some crazy stuff! I will be sad when it's over...but I will also be happy to have those nights back. For the most part, I think the rehearsal schedule was pretty good...having all of the dances made up and semi taught before the winter break made it easier on me. The kids are just so young and are feeling it's more fun to socialize than to work. But that is okay, it will be a good show!
Suessical- Now here are kids who are working hard! I mean, I'm not going easy on them with the dances...and they are getting it! It's crazy the drive that these kids who have probably never done a show have for this show! I hope that I get to work with them again! They are just awesome! Plus, we still have a month til this show opens!!! I'm excited for the family to see this show!
Other news- all of the high school musicals started last week. I went and saw Legally Blonde at my old High School! #1 that show is just an amazing show. With love, happiness, and great music...it's just amazing!!! #2 the kids were amazing!!! They sang and acted the show like champs!!! I mean, it was great!!! The dancing was the weakest link and I think that was the fault of the choreographer and not the dancers. My cousins show is this weekend. He is doing Music Man! It's not my favorite show, but it's a cute one. Just don't ever do it twice in 4 months. That is just not good. Then I'm going to see Into the Woods! That show is just awesome, I hope the kids do it justice! I know the kid playing the main part and he is great...so that is already a great sign!
Curt and I- are doing amazing!!! On Monday we were texting about how we wished we could see each other. We were texting for probably 10 min. He would say, I have a seat open next to me...and I would say I too have a seat open just for you. Well, it turns out he was downstairs in my living room the whole time while I was upstairs talking to my mom. Ha ha ha, it was so funny! After writing it out...it sounds a little creepy...but it wasn't at the time. It was an awesome surprise for me!!! A few things I'm trying to plan out- Valentines Day and Curt's Birthday. <sigh> I will have to keep you updated on both...and hopefully figure something out for both!
Now, I'm back on Day 1 for the diet! I have been working out at least twice a day for 2 weeks straight!!! I'm feeling good and for the most part more awake. I started stretching for my splits and am more determined than ever! I also feel that with my working out and stretching it will totally be possible! I will keep you updated and wish I could do some sort of video blog...show progress! I have been looking up how to splits videos and these gals are already uber flexible or gymnasts or something...so I think it would be neat to see someone progress who is "normal" or not a flexible person.
Okay, I think that is all for now!
Military Diet- I ended up losing 2.5LBS. I was a little sad at first, but then I remembered what they said...it's not always about the weight. It's also about inches and how you feel! So, I realized that I felt great and that a pair of pants that I wanted to wear the Monday before the diet...they fit after the diet!!! Yahoo!!! So, I wore the pants on Sunday to Church...and then again on Monday! Ha ha ha...
Beauty and the Beast- It's going great! The dances are coming along quite well...if only I could get the kids to take it seriously and practice on their own a little. <sigh> I guess they will work even harder the week of the show. Only 3 more rehearsals before tech week!!! That is some crazy stuff! I will be sad when it's over...but I will also be happy to have those nights back. For the most part, I think the rehearsal schedule was pretty good...having all of the dances made up and semi taught before the winter break made it easier on me. The kids are just so young and are feeling it's more fun to socialize than to work. But that is okay, it will be a good show!
Suessical- Now here are kids who are working hard! I mean, I'm not going easy on them with the dances...and they are getting it! It's crazy the drive that these kids who have probably never done a show have for this show! I hope that I get to work with them again! They are just awesome! Plus, we still have a month til this show opens!!! I'm excited for the family to see this show!
Other news- all of the high school musicals started last week. I went and saw Legally Blonde at my old High School! #1 that show is just an amazing show. With love, happiness, and great music...it's just amazing!!! #2 the kids were amazing!!! They sang and acted the show like champs!!! I mean, it was great!!! The dancing was the weakest link and I think that was the fault of the choreographer and not the dancers. My cousins show is this weekend. He is doing Music Man! It's not my favorite show, but it's a cute one. Just don't ever do it twice in 4 months. That is just not good. Then I'm going to see Into the Woods! That show is just awesome, I hope the kids do it justice! I know the kid playing the main part and he is great...so that is already a great sign!
Curt and I- are doing amazing!!! On Monday we were texting about how we wished we could see each other. We were texting for probably 10 min. He would say, I have a seat open next to me...and I would say I too have a seat open just for you. Well, it turns out he was downstairs in my living room the whole time while I was upstairs talking to my mom. Ha ha ha, it was so funny! After writing it out...it sounds a little creepy...but it wasn't at the time. It was an awesome surprise for me!!! A few things I'm trying to plan out- Valentines Day and Curt's Birthday. <sigh> I will have to keep you updated on both...and hopefully figure something out for both!
Now, I'm back on Day 1 for the diet! I have been working out at least twice a day for 2 weeks straight!!! I'm feeling good and for the most part more awake. I started stretching for my splits and am more determined than ever! I also feel that with my working out and stretching it will totally be possible! I will keep you updated and wish I could do some sort of video blog...show progress! I have been looking up how to splits videos and these gals are already uber flexible or gymnasts or something...so I think it would be neat to see someone progress who is "normal" or not a flexible person.
Okay, I think that is all for now!
Friday, February 1, 2013
Almost over for today!!!
Day #3 of this Military Diet and I'm not doing the best! Let me take that back, on one hand I'm doing great. Which means I am eating exactly what I am supposed to and I'm drinking over the amount of water I'm supposed to. The not so good side is the side that is really hungry today, grouchy and cryish yesterday...and the one that just wants to jump into a chocolate cupcake with peanut butter frosting...or make those cookies that I saw chocolate chip on the outside and peppermint patties on the inside!!! Yummy!!!
I was talking to Curt last night and I was getting frusterated that he wasn't understanding why I was acting the way I was. I think I was hungry (but not hungry like I am today...but like I want a dessert) and tired. So I started crying (it's what I do when I'm overly emotional about anything). I couldn't just right out and say I think I'm acting this way because of the diet I"m on...he would just tell me to not be on the diet. Which I might not do again because I'm starving! And because I have a really hard time when people tell me that I can't do something or eat something. I believe FlyLady (if you don't know who she is...look her up) would say that is my inner brat talking. But I don't want to have to tell myself that I can't have a cookie or cupcake or pasta. I hate that! So, if that is how I want to be...I will need to start working out more and earning those fun things that I want to eat. Or just learn to slow down my eating and I will eat less! Or that I will eat again in a few hours...no matter what my eyes might actually be saying.
On a good note, I can do a diet like this if I need too! I can excercise my will power and not eat things that I want too. What I'm really hoping for is that I will have lost a few lbs over these past few days. If that wish doesn't come true than it really is a lame diet! Ha ha ha
In other parts of my life besides the food part, I have been working out every morning and night. I did take last night off since I had a headache. But I was up this morning working away! I could use a lovely little nap right about now. Maybe it would help me forget that I'm hungry! Geesh, get over the food thing already! The season for high school shows is starting up! This weekend I'm going to see Legally Blonde at my old high school. Next weekend I'm going to see my cousin in his show then my friends son in another show! Then the next week is a 4 day week, I get my nails done, go the audition clinic, see a show with adults, and get my hair done! Then it's the big week- Tech week for B&B and audition week for Chiefs! OMG then February is practically over! I can't believe it's moving so fast! I need to craft some...but when? Maybe in March I will get to work on some fun stuff! When I'm not working I don't want to do anything...ha ha ha...
Alright, 30 min til Friday job #1 is done!!! Yahoo!!! Have a great weekend folks!
I was talking to Curt last night and I was getting frusterated that he wasn't understanding why I was acting the way I was. I think I was hungry (but not hungry like I am today...but like I want a dessert) and tired. So I started crying (it's what I do when I'm overly emotional about anything). I couldn't just right out and say I think I'm acting this way because of the diet I"m on...he would just tell me to not be on the diet. Which I might not do again because I'm starving! And because I have a really hard time when people tell me that I can't do something or eat something. I believe FlyLady (if you don't know who she is...look her up) would say that is my inner brat talking. But I don't want to have to tell myself that I can't have a cookie or cupcake or pasta. I hate that! So, if that is how I want to be...I will need to start working out more and earning those fun things that I want to eat. Or just learn to slow down my eating and I will eat less! Or that I will eat again in a few hours...no matter what my eyes might actually be saying.
On a good note, I can do a diet like this if I need too! I can excercise my will power and not eat things that I want too. What I'm really hoping for is that I will have lost a few lbs over these past few days. If that wish doesn't come true than it really is a lame diet! Ha ha ha
In other parts of my life besides the food part, I have been working out every morning and night. I did take last night off since I had a headache. But I was up this morning working away! I could use a lovely little nap right about now. Maybe it would help me forget that I'm hungry! Geesh, get over the food thing already! The season for high school shows is starting up! This weekend I'm going to see Legally Blonde at my old high school. Next weekend I'm going to see my cousin in his show then my friends son in another show! Then the next week is a 4 day week, I get my nails done, go the audition clinic, see a show with adults, and get my hair done! Then it's the big week- Tech week for B&B and audition week for Chiefs! OMG then February is practically over! I can't believe it's moving so fast! I need to craft some...but when? Maybe in March I will get to work on some fun stuff! When I'm not working I don't want to do anything...ha ha ha...
Alright, 30 min til Friday job #1 is done!!! Yahoo!!! Have a great weekend folks!
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