Today I got an email that said I might be out of a choreographing job! It was a bit of a random email. One I was not expecting, so it really took me off guard. It also took my inner finance gal for a loop as well! You know the saying "When God closes a door, he opens a window"? It's a good one. But here is what I'm feeling as of right now...
I feel as if a door is closing, but I can't tell if I'm supposed to run and catch it before it closes. Or let it close, so that a window can be opened! It's a rough feeling, you know?
The email said:
Are you planning on returning as an assistant director on
the musical? I am not sure if Christa has spoken with you on this, but we
need all assistant directors to be at all rehearsals for the full time for
student supervision when they are not working on their specific area.
While on one hand, I totally understand this thought. At my school, I'm at rehearsal every day...whether I'm needed or not. Sometimes it's fun, sometimes it's a bit buggy. I just end up sitting in the back literally doing nothing. I get that you if are paying me, you would like me to be there. On the other hand, I have a specific talent. Not everyone has this kind of talent! If I can be there 28 out of the 43 rehearsals- with my specific talent- do I really need to attend the other 15 rehearsals to just sit there?
I guess the thing that is really bothering me is that we have been doing the same thing for the past 3 years. So, why does it need to be different now? Oh well!
I am trying to learn to let God close a door so he can open a window...but I tend to have doorstops that I want to use just in case! That is probably why I have a billion jobs. I keep all of these doors propped open...when sometimes they just need to close!
Okay, that is all for today! Happy Monday, folks!
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