It has been a bit of a crazy year! There is so much to talk about!
1. I'm pregnant! 16.5 weeks as of today!!! My husband and I are so excited! It was quite a year, but it all worked out! We (as in me) started trying last December. Which means I went off of birth control. I didn't want to be that "crazy wife", so I didn't tell my husband that I was taking my temperature or that I was following when I was ovulating. Needless to say...we didn't get pregnant. I went to a dr. apt in June and the Dr. said, you are doing fine. Come back and see me in December if you still aren't pregnant. Wah Wah! Fast forward to October, Curt and I have a conversation about ovulating and all sorts of pregnancy stuff. He is totally on board and begins to say every day "Are you ovulating? Because I am ready to do my part." Ha ha ha. What a total guy thing to say! Anyway, in November we went to visit his family for Thanksgiving. We had a wonderful time and I was told that we needed to "do it" at my Mother-in-laws house to get pregnant. I just laughed, but then looked at both my MIL and SIL- they were for real! Life went on, we came home, celebrated with my sister at her Bachelorette Party and started preparing for my studio's ballet and the church Christmas program.
A week later, my temperature dipped and I started spotting. I was sad because I thought I was out for the month. Curt and I were talking about scheduling an appointment in January with a baby dr, just to make sure everything was okay. The next day, my temperature spiked and the following day it spiked again. I was so nervous, but also excited. On the third day of rising temperatures...I woke up at 7am (it was a Saturday) and decided to take a pregnancy test. My mom was already texting me that morning- so when it showed positive (a very light positive) I said can you come in here. She must have gotten up very quickly because my dad soon followed her. I started crying of course and we all hugged. I didn't want to wake Curt up yet, he had not been sleeping that well lately, So instead I went to the church program rehearsal instead. Later that day the whole family went out to lunch followed by a trip to Babies R Us! We had to get a gift for our nephew Bo! I knew that I was going to tell Curt there as well. I picked up a girl outfit and a boy outfit. I went up to him and said "What do you think will work best for our baby?" He got a bit confused since we were here for Bo, but he looked at the shirts then looked at me. I repeated the question again emphasizing the OUR BABY part. And I started tearing up...and he said "Are you for real? Is this a joke? Is this for real?" He couldn't believe it! He was so excited! He couldn't wait to tell people! I told him that I was probably around 3 weeks, so we couldn't really tell anyone yet. Except for our parents. My folks were at the store with us and we all hugged again and Curt was so excited- he walked on air for a bit!
I told my sisters/brother-in-laws on December 23rd! Curt and I both wore shirts with little foot prints on them. It took a good 3 min for anyone to realize what we were wearing! The video is pretty funny! But once they did everyone was so happy! We were hugging, crying, and then we had to get our nails done for my sisters wedding! I told the rest of the family on New Years Eve! We all went around in a circle saying what we were looking forward too in the new year. I said, finishing my first year of my Masters program...and becoming a mom in August! Once again there were hugs, tears, and excitement!
It's starting to become more real each day. I am starting to show just a bit. There are a lot of people who are also pregnant with me. My sister-in-law is 9 weeks ahead of me, one of Curt's groomsmen is 4 weeks behind me, and a friend of mine is one week behind me. So, it will be fun to have so many babies/new moms to be around. Of course my biggest source of information is my mom and sisters! They have been so helpful and amazing through everything so far!
2. School! Last summer I started my Masters classes, passed the Core praxis and passed the Speech/Drama praxis. It was a big deal. In December I was officially put into the Masters program! Which means that even if I don't get a 3.0 they can't kick me out! Yahoo!!! That being said, I have gotten A's in all of my classes. In fact I have gotten 98%-100% in all of my classes. I am working my tail off and it's totally paying off! Once this school year is over I will have one more year of the program and then I will be able to teach! And the Winter semester (Jan. '18) I will start student teaching. So- this next year will be crazy!
3. Curt started working at HMS! He is a Para and works with the 8th grade students. He is of course amazing at his job. The kids love him, the teachers love him, and he loves it as well. With his other jobs if I asked how was work, he would respond "worky". Now if you ask him, he talks about the funny things the kids do and how he responds to them. He is totally in his element and it's amazing to see him grow and become this confident person who knows what he wants to do. This past fall he also began taking classes at the community college. It's not always easy, but it makes it a bit easier when you can see the light at the end of the tunnel. He got to help out at the musical and got to work with a lot of great people. We are hoping this next year that he will get to coach some as well!
Okay, I think that is all! I will try to be better at posting. Spring Break begins tomorrow, so I'm not sure how that will go...but we will figure it out!
Thursday, March 9, 2017
Friday, September 30, 2016
Ummm...the last five years! Or just the past 4 months...
Holy moly, it's been a long time since I wrote last. Since the middle of May! So much has happened in my life since then. I'm not even sure where to begin!
The last 4 months have brought some of the most amazing times and some of the worst times in my life! I'm going to mention some things very briefly...and then jump in to where I am now.
This summer I officially started my Masters of Art in Teaching. I passed the three classes that I needed to get into the program. But, I had to take 2 Praxis tests. One test was almost 4 hours long and the second test was close to 2 hours. The tests cost a total of $300! So, these were tests that I couldn't fail! Plus, I had to pass them by August 1 or I would be out of the Masters Program. The problem was, that if I did not pass the tests, I would have to wait 2 weeks to take them again...so that really limited me to when I had to take them! I took my first test- the Praxis Core (it's Reading, Writing, and Math combined) and I passed it with flying colors. I have never studied so hard for anything in my life! The second test was the Speech/Drama test...and I passed it, but only by a little! Which doesn't bother me at all...a passing grade is a passing grade! So, that was one more thing to check of my list on the way to getting my Masters in Teaching!
Another great thing that happened, was getting to work on the production of Aida at StageworX! It is one of my favorite shows and this summer just proved that over and over! I loved working on it! The music is amazing, the kids were amazing, and it was just a dream three weeks! I don't know if I have ever worked with such amazing, dedicated, quite while backstage group of kids. It really made the show that much more special for me! Truly one of the favorites that I have ever been a part of!
In perfect theatre fashion, one of the worst tragedy's mixed with one of the most wonderful things happened this summer. My sister was due in July with twins. We found out on June 20th, that she had lost one of the boys, Kristof to be exact. The type of pain this brought to everyone in our family, is indescribable. The heartache radiates out- it's pain for myself/husband/sisters/their husbands- on missing their nephew. Pain for my parents on missing their grandchild. Most importantly and the hardest heartache is the one for my sister and brother-in-law. I can't even begin to imagine what they are feeling, all I know is the my heart breaks for them more than anything else! The good news, if there is good news, is that Kristof is already making his presence known. He will forever be in our hearts, but he will now be our little raccoon, or a coin we see on the ground...it's not the same, but hopefully these little signs will start to help the healing process. I could talk about this all day long, but I feel as if it's not my story. I am a part of the story, but not the main part. So, talking more about it on here, would make me feel weird.
Now, I'm going to go on to talk about the most wonderful things that also happened this summer, my sister had a wonderful son, named B!!!! He was so tiny! I flew out to visit her in July when B was only 5lbs! I can not tell you enough how small he was! He was 2 weeks old when I held him for the first time! And he smiled at me! Scientist might say that it was just gas...but I know better! He knew his Aunt Amy was holding him! He was a wonderful baby who hardly ever cried! He just laid there and was a beautiful baby! I got to go to his first Dr. apt and found out that he was eating and growing! It was such a wonderful week! My sister and I sat, held B, and watched TV! I mean, is there a better dream? After 9 days, I left...and I have not seen him since. However, the pictures we get or the video's we get are nothing short of amazing! I look at them and watch them over and over. My sister is flying in with B in 13 days...and guess who gets to pick them up at the airport?!?!?! ME!!! And my husband, who is just as excited as I am, because he has not gotten to meet B yet! Holy cow, I am so excited! I will get my flu shot at 3pm and then head to the airport to get them! Ahhhhh!
On to the last couple of months...school started back up! I got "A's" in both of my summer Masters classes! The final step to getting into the Masters program is that I maintain a 3.0 for the first 12 hours of the program! 6 hours done, 6 more to go! So far, the classes seem okay. It's a lot of thinking about what I do and putting it into words. That is way more difficult than you would think. I just do what I do...I do not think about it! So, it takes time to think it through. My school musical began mid-August and will run through the first week of October. The high school musical started up early mid-September and will run through mid-November. I have noticed this year, for the first time that I'm tired. I have been doing 2 shows in the fall for the last 6 years and it's a lot! I'm not sure if it's the fact that I don't have anything come January that is making everything seem like a lot! Or if the fact that I am getting older and more conscience about my time and who I spend it with. I don't know, maybe I'm getting older...and am just tired. Anyway, it's hard!
Let's see, the other amazing thing that happened, was that my hubby started working at a middle school. He is a Para Educator. It was a bit of a last minute "do you want this job? You can start tomorrow"! He interviewed on a Friday and was working that next Monday! And he loves it! He at least enjoys it more than any other job he has had! And it reminded him why he wants to be a teacher! He started that job, and is now enrolled and attending JCCC working his way towards a teaching degree! I know the kids have to love him! He is funny, laid back, and just "cool"! This week has been crazy since his computer is on the fritz...and it's hard to see him frustrated about it. But he continues to work hard and work towards something that is for him! It makes me happy to see him excited about work.
I guess that is all for now, sorry for the super long post! I hope to get back to writing a bit more than I did this summer! Okay...bye!
The last 4 months have brought some of the most amazing times and some of the worst times in my life! I'm going to mention some things very briefly...and then jump in to where I am now.
This summer I officially started my Masters of Art in Teaching. I passed the three classes that I needed to get into the program. But, I had to take 2 Praxis tests. One test was almost 4 hours long and the second test was close to 2 hours. The tests cost a total of $300! So, these were tests that I couldn't fail! Plus, I had to pass them by August 1 or I would be out of the Masters Program. The problem was, that if I did not pass the tests, I would have to wait 2 weeks to take them again...so that really limited me to when I had to take them! I took my first test- the Praxis Core (it's Reading, Writing, and Math combined) and I passed it with flying colors. I have never studied so hard for anything in my life! The second test was the Speech/Drama test...and I passed it, but only by a little! Which doesn't bother me at all...a passing grade is a passing grade! So, that was one more thing to check of my list on the way to getting my Masters in Teaching!
Another great thing that happened, was getting to work on the production of Aida at StageworX! It is one of my favorite shows and this summer just proved that over and over! I loved working on it! The music is amazing, the kids were amazing, and it was just a dream three weeks! I don't know if I have ever worked with such amazing, dedicated, quite while backstage group of kids. It really made the show that much more special for me! Truly one of the favorites that I have ever been a part of!
In perfect theatre fashion, one of the worst tragedy's mixed with one of the most wonderful things happened this summer. My sister was due in July with twins. We found out on June 20th, that she had lost one of the boys, Kristof to be exact. The type of pain this brought to everyone in our family, is indescribable. The heartache radiates out- it's pain for myself/husband/sisters/their husbands- on missing their nephew. Pain for my parents on missing their grandchild. Most importantly and the hardest heartache is the one for my sister and brother-in-law. I can't even begin to imagine what they are feeling, all I know is the my heart breaks for them more than anything else! The good news, if there is good news, is that Kristof is already making his presence known. He will forever be in our hearts, but he will now be our little raccoon, or a coin we see on the ground...it's not the same, but hopefully these little signs will start to help the healing process. I could talk about this all day long, but I feel as if it's not my story. I am a part of the story, but not the main part. So, talking more about it on here, would make me feel weird.
Now, I'm going to go on to talk about the most wonderful things that also happened this summer, my sister had a wonderful son, named B!!!! He was so tiny! I flew out to visit her in July when B was only 5lbs! I can not tell you enough how small he was! He was 2 weeks old when I held him for the first time! And he smiled at me! Scientist might say that it was just gas...but I know better! He knew his Aunt Amy was holding him! He was a wonderful baby who hardly ever cried! He just laid there and was a beautiful baby! I got to go to his first Dr. apt and found out that he was eating and growing! It was such a wonderful week! My sister and I sat, held B, and watched TV! I mean, is there a better dream? After 9 days, I left...and I have not seen him since. However, the pictures we get or the video's we get are nothing short of amazing! I look at them and watch them over and over. My sister is flying in with B in 13 days...and guess who gets to pick them up at the airport?!?!?! ME!!! And my husband, who is just as excited as I am, because he has not gotten to meet B yet! Holy cow, I am so excited! I will get my flu shot at 3pm and then head to the airport to get them! Ahhhhh!
On to the last couple of months...school started back up! I got "A's" in both of my summer Masters classes! The final step to getting into the Masters program is that I maintain a 3.0 for the first 12 hours of the program! 6 hours done, 6 more to go! So far, the classes seem okay. It's a lot of thinking about what I do and putting it into words. That is way more difficult than you would think. I just do what I do...I do not think about it! So, it takes time to think it through. My school musical began mid-August and will run through the first week of October. The high school musical started up early mid-September and will run through mid-November. I have noticed this year, for the first time that I'm tired. I have been doing 2 shows in the fall for the last 6 years and it's a lot! I'm not sure if it's the fact that I don't have anything come January that is making everything seem like a lot! Or if the fact that I am getting older and more conscience about my time and who I spend it with. I don't know, maybe I'm getting older...and am just tired. Anyway, it's hard!
Let's see, the other amazing thing that happened, was that my hubby started working at a middle school. He is a Para Educator. It was a bit of a last minute "do you want this job? You can start tomorrow"! He interviewed on a Friday and was working that next Monday! And he loves it! He at least enjoys it more than any other job he has had! And it reminded him why he wants to be a teacher! He started that job, and is now enrolled and attending JCCC working his way towards a teaching degree! I know the kids have to love him! He is funny, laid back, and just "cool"! This week has been crazy since his computer is on the fritz...and it's hard to see him frustrated about it. But he continues to work hard and work towards something that is for him! It makes me happy to see him excited about work.
I guess that is all for now, sorry for the super long post! I hope to get back to writing a bit more than I did this summer! Okay...bye!
Wednesday, May 18, 2016
It's not personal!
How to not take things personally...
Any clues? I have none! I'm lost! I take everything personally! I don't know how to not take things personally! I wonder if some of it is the Pisces sign...ha ha ha. Okay, so I don't really think that, but it's interesting that a Pisces downfall is their sensitivity! Ha ha ha!
So, this past year I choreographed 3 shows at the same time. This was not fun! I was stressed out and to be honest, I didn't even want to do one of the shows...I was talked into by a friend. So, it was stressful! One of the companies I have said no too, and it will be no for a long time. Another place I said no to, was great, but it was a bit crazy with the schedule. So, I have said no to all shows after Winter Break! Except for one. I hadn't said no, but I had not been asked back yet. Which wasn't surprising, since this past year I wasn't officially asked until the fall. So, I was thinking alright, I have cleared my schedule! I will be able to be at more rehearsals and help out more.
But...
Today I got an email letting me know they went with someone else. They wanted someone else who could be at rehearsal earlier than 4:15pm. And unfortunately that was the earliest that I could arrive because of my full time job. Plus, the school is far, so me getting out at 3:45 does not help! And the email said she wanted someone who can be their earlier. Which makes sense. Plus, I do not know what next year brings! I know that now, I can relax a little more next year! Doing 5-6 shows a year is nutty!
And the more I think about it, the more I think not doing anything will be great! I will have 2 shows in the fall, possibly working on the ballet, taking some classes for the Masters program, the Christmas program, and my sister is getting married! And who knows, maybe I will be pregnant as well. So, I might not want to do anything anyway!
Okay, I feel better! Sometimes just writing things out makes me feel better!
Friday, May 6, 2016
I need to relax? What? Are you sure?
So, I went off the pill in December. We officially started trying in January (December would have been a bad time to get pregnant with my schedule). Now, I say officially, because we had a talk that said (I guess technically the talk happened in December) if we get pregnant we are good with it.
So far, nothing has happened. Am I surprised? Not really. Let's do a quick recap of my life since January:
January- work full time, choreographing 2 shows, going to school, and teaching 2 hours of dance. I remember feeling very overwhelmed and exhausted. Am I surprised I didn't get pregnant? No!
February- work full time, choreographing 3 shows, going to school, and teaching 2 hours of dance. I have also picked up some extra hours of dance. Once again I am feeling overwhelmed, exhausted, wondering if I'm going to make it to my vacation. I also remember thinking that I was pregnant since I was soooooo tired. However, it was just my life that was making me tired. Ha ha ha!
March- work full time, opened 3 shows, going to school, and taught 2 hours of dance. I remember feeling guilty because I was not giving my full attention to anyone. Not to the shows nor dance, nor work. I did get to go on vacation- which was amazing...but I was a bit stressed the whole time about how much we were spending. I was also a bit stressed because we were supposed to be ovulating while on vacation. Looking back, it wasn't as relaxing as I would have liked it to be...but I'm starting to wonder if I will ever be able to fully relax.
April- my life has quieted down a bit...I still work full time, go to school, and teach dance. I got into the Masters Program- which starts in the summer...so I'm a bit worried about financial aid, the amount of homework, and some tests that I still have to take which will cost around $300. We made it to our One-Year Anniversary...but my stressing out is not looking any better. Money, school, moving, Curt doesn't like his job, if we do get pregnant- can we afford it? Am I to old to get pregnant? Um...does anyone have any stress? I sometimes feel like I am taking everyone else's.
May- I go from being fine to stressing out and then back to fine...about every day. It's getting better...but still buggy. I'm not having panic attacks or anything like that...I just plan ahead for months and years...which is pointless because things change all the time- but I still plan and then plan for plan B and plan C. I'm still working full time and teaching dance, but am looking forward to the summer- where I have a bit of a break.
Overall- since we started trying...I have had some of the most stressful months of the year or my life. I'm not sure which. So, is it any surprise that I'm not pregnant? No! Does it surprise me when people say "you just need to relax"? No! Is it annoying when people say that? Not yet...so that is good. And that is also because I know I need to relax. The thing no one really mentions is how to relax. How can I relax when I'm always stressed about something. Whether it's money, my getting older and not having kids yet, my husband and his future, my own future, my family and their health...I mean where does it stop?
You know what? It's stopping now! I'm at least going to try harder to not worry quite so much. How am I doing that? I'm not sure. We are going to be moving in with my folks for a bit, so that will help with my money issues. That will also help us pay off our bills- which will also help with my stress. I have cut down on the activities that I will be doing next year. I have said no to a few shows. Hopefully I will only be doing 3-4 shows next year instead of the 6 I did this year! And of course the amazing weather- having a back porch (my folks house), I would like to start working out again, I pray- about my family, myself, and to remind me that it's not my plan...it's His plan, then I give thanks and finally I read these devotionals that are written just for me. Here is today's:
"Do not search for security in the world you inhabit. You tend to make mental checklists of things you need to do in order to gain control of your life. If only you could check everything off your lise, you could relax and be at peace. but you the more you work to accomplish that goal, the more thing crop up on your list. The harder you try, the more frustrated you become".
I make lists for everything. Last night I spent an hour making a list on paying off our bills. I have moving lists, and a school list, and a list on getting pregnant, and a list for my lists. So, my lists are going out the window. I might make a "To-Do" list for the day...but that is it! I'm going to relax! I'm going to enjoy life! I'm going to even enjoy the struggles that I'm going through! So...there you have it! You know how I'm going to start relaxing? I will get a few things ready for our move, clean a few things as well (I promise this will help me de-stress...knowing I'm doing something), and relax with the husband. And, next week I'm getting a massage called "Stress Fix Massage". It will be a work in process, but one that will hopefully help me in the future! Thanks for reading, and I hope this does not stress you out...I feel better now!
So far, nothing has happened. Am I surprised? Not really. Let's do a quick recap of my life since January:
January- work full time, choreographing 2 shows, going to school, and teaching 2 hours of dance. I remember feeling very overwhelmed and exhausted. Am I surprised I didn't get pregnant? No!
February- work full time, choreographing 3 shows, going to school, and teaching 2 hours of dance. I have also picked up some extra hours of dance. Once again I am feeling overwhelmed, exhausted, wondering if I'm going to make it to my vacation. I also remember thinking that I was pregnant since I was soooooo tired. However, it was just my life that was making me tired. Ha ha ha!
March- work full time, opened 3 shows, going to school, and taught 2 hours of dance. I remember feeling guilty because I was not giving my full attention to anyone. Not to the shows nor dance, nor work. I did get to go on vacation- which was amazing...but I was a bit stressed the whole time about how much we were spending. I was also a bit stressed because we were supposed to be ovulating while on vacation. Looking back, it wasn't as relaxing as I would have liked it to be...but I'm starting to wonder if I will ever be able to fully relax.
April- my life has quieted down a bit...I still work full time, go to school, and teach dance. I got into the Masters Program- which starts in the summer...so I'm a bit worried about financial aid, the amount of homework, and some tests that I still have to take which will cost around $300. We made it to our One-Year Anniversary...but my stressing out is not looking any better. Money, school, moving, Curt doesn't like his job, if we do get pregnant- can we afford it? Am I to old to get pregnant? Um...does anyone have any stress? I sometimes feel like I am taking everyone else's.
May- I go from being fine to stressing out and then back to fine...about every day. It's getting better...but still buggy. I'm not having panic attacks or anything like that...I just plan ahead for months and years...which is pointless because things change all the time- but I still plan and then plan for plan B and plan C. I'm still working full time and teaching dance, but am looking forward to the summer- where I have a bit of a break.
Overall- since we started trying...I have had some of the most stressful months of the year or my life. I'm not sure which. So, is it any surprise that I'm not pregnant? No! Does it surprise me when people say "you just need to relax"? No! Is it annoying when people say that? Not yet...so that is good. And that is also because I know I need to relax. The thing no one really mentions is how to relax. How can I relax when I'm always stressed about something. Whether it's money, my getting older and not having kids yet, my husband and his future, my own future, my family and their health...I mean where does it stop?
You know what? It's stopping now! I'm at least going to try harder to not worry quite so much. How am I doing that? I'm not sure. We are going to be moving in with my folks for a bit, so that will help with my money issues. That will also help us pay off our bills- which will also help with my stress. I have cut down on the activities that I will be doing next year. I have said no to a few shows. Hopefully I will only be doing 3-4 shows next year instead of the 6 I did this year! And of course the amazing weather- having a back porch (my folks house), I would like to start working out again, I pray- about my family, myself, and to remind me that it's not my plan...it's His plan, then I give thanks and finally I read these devotionals that are written just for me. Here is today's:
"Do not search for security in the world you inhabit. You tend to make mental checklists of things you need to do in order to gain control of your life. If only you could check everything off your lise, you could relax and be at peace. but you the more you work to accomplish that goal, the more thing crop up on your list. The harder you try, the more frustrated you become".
I make lists for everything. Last night I spent an hour making a list on paying off our bills. I have moving lists, and a school list, and a list on getting pregnant, and a list for my lists. So, my lists are going out the window. I might make a "To-Do" list for the day...but that is it! I'm going to relax! I'm going to enjoy life! I'm going to even enjoy the struggles that I'm going through! So...there you have it! You know how I'm going to start relaxing? I will get a few things ready for our move, clean a few things as well (I promise this will help me de-stress...knowing I'm doing something), and relax with the husband. And, next week I'm getting a massage called "Stress Fix Massage". It will be a work in process, but one that will hopefully help me in the future! Thanks for reading, and I hope this does not stress you out...I feel better now!
Friday, April 29, 2016
Time moves both fast and slow...weird!
Time moves fast and slow...do you know what I mean?
Let's take the month of April for example. I can't believe that tomorrow is the last day of April. I mean this month has flown by! And it should, I was busy. But when I stop and think, my one year anniversary was a few weeks ago...that just seems insane! It seems like another lifetime ago that we celebrated with eating our cake!
It's been quite a month! I'm glad it's over! If you have read my blog you know that I'm always looking at the future! So, I'm excited for this next season in life, in weather, in things that we are doing.
I have 15 more days of school, which means a wonderful change in schedule. My summer theatre camp begins here shortly...which is one of my favorite times of the year! Curt is looking for a different job. One that will hopefully make him a bit more happy and a bit more money. So there is that change in life. We will be moving out of our apartment and into....well, we aren't sure exactly where we will be moving. My sisters babies will be born in July, so that will be a nice trip for us! I start the Masters Program in June- another change! It's just so exciting!
So, while this month flew by, the individual days of the week were a bit slow motion! Here is too a new month! To warmer weather, new routines, different jobs, new dances, homework, and a new life path! We can do this and I'm actually looking forward to doing this!
Let's take the month of April for example. I can't believe that tomorrow is the last day of April. I mean this month has flown by! And it should, I was busy. But when I stop and think, my one year anniversary was a few weeks ago...that just seems insane! It seems like another lifetime ago that we celebrated with eating our cake!
It's been quite a month! I'm glad it's over! If you have read my blog you know that I'm always looking at the future! So, I'm excited for this next season in life, in weather, in things that we are doing.
I have 15 more days of school, which means a wonderful change in schedule. My summer theatre camp begins here shortly...which is one of my favorite times of the year! Curt is looking for a different job. One that will hopefully make him a bit more happy and a bit more money. So there is that change in life. We will be moving out of our apartment and into....well, we aren't sure exactly where we will be moving. My sisters babies will be born in July, so that will be a nice trip for us! I start the Masters Program in June- another change! It's just so exciting!
So, while this month flew by, the individual days of the week were a bit slow motion! Here is too a new month! To warmer weather, new routines, different jobs, new dances, homework, and a new life path! We can do this and I'm actually looking forward to doing this!
Tuesday, April 19, 2016
Hello Headache...it's been a while...
People, yesterday I said to my husband (who had a headache) that I have not had a headache in a long time. Not that I was trying to brag to my hubby, but I am a person who gets headaches a lot. I feel as if I get them every couple of days. So for me to say that I have not gotten one in a while was a bit crazy.
So, I went to look it up...and it's been 16 days since my last headache. Of course today (the day after I comment about my lack of headaches) I get a headache. But I still take it as a big accomplishment!
My next thoughts go to...why did I get a headache?
1. I have been drinking a lot of water lately. I try to do 6-9 glasses a night. I'm currently on glasses 7-9. So, I don't think I'm dehydrated.
2. I didn't eat on time. If I wait to long to eat...then I get a hunger headache. I was starving when I went to grab my lunch...so that might be the case.
3. The weather is a bit crazy right now...so that might cause a headache.
You want to know what I think?
I think I'm having sugar withdrawals! Now don't get me wrong....I still had coffee with creamer yesterday- a salted mocha caramel creamer. Last night I ate a peanut butter and strawberry jam sandwich. So, it's not like I'm cutting it out cold turkey. But...I'm not eating cookie dough. Or candy bars. Or any type of deliberate sweet. And I think my body is saying...there is a lot less sugar here than normal. So...yikes! It's so hard to not have sweets! They are my downfall! But I remember in December having so much extra energy...even though I was working like a mad woman! So, I'm going to try to refrain...
So, I'm going to blame my headache on my sugar withdrawal! Ha ha ha! We will see how tomorrow goes!
Friday, April 15, 2016
Coincidence or a God Thing?
Coincidence or A God Thing?
So, I have a calendar sitting on my desk that has Bible quotes and little inspirational notes...almost like mini lessons....but not really. Anyway, my parents got these for all of us girls a couple of years ago. Last year I brought it to school to look at every day. And I will keep using it, because...well I like reading the messages. *Sidebar, they got one for each of us 4 girls, but what they didn't realize is that one of them was in Spanish. So, that was really funny to watch Sarah open on Christmas morning. It's a good thing she minored in Spanish in college...ha ha ha*
So, it seems that when I'm feeling particularly stressed about something, I flip my calendar to the current date and the message is meant just for me! This happens more than you know. One time I was worried about money and I flipped the calendar and it said something about money not being the end all be all. Ha!
Today I come in to work, and I'm worried about life. Since I am no longer insanely busy...I now have time to worry about EVERYTHING! Ha ha ha! Now I worry normally, but today I was getting frustrated because I'm worried about things that are out of my control! And I hate not being able to control things in my life...ha ha ha!
Anyway, so I get to work, flip my calendar and it says:
Trust Me, and don't be afraid. Many things feel out of control. Your routines are not running smoothly. You tend to feel more secure when your life is predictable. Let Me lead you to the rock that is higher than you and your circumstances. Take refuge in the shelter of My wings, where you are absolutely secure.
When you are shaken out of your comfortable routines, grip My hand tightly and look for growth opportunities. Instead of bemoaning the loss of your comfort, accept the challenge of something new. I lead you on from glory to glory, making you fit for My kingdom. Say yes to the ways I work in your life. Trush Me, and don't be afraid.
Ha ha ha, just last night I was sitting with my husband thinking...what are we going to do? We have so much time together...this is new! And not that I liked never seeing him...but going from seeing him for a few hours a couple times a week...to seeing him every night for 4-5 hours a night...well it's different. It's new! It's something that I am having to figure out. Life right now feels off, feels out of control, and I have not made any new routines yet...so this passage was written just for me today!
Coincidence or a God thing? I am going with a God thing! It makes me feel better that God is here is with me. That he knows my worries and this little calendar is his way of saying...don't worry, I'm here with you!
Okay...it's back to work for me!
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